My Dearest "Leaving the Legion" - your anonymous status is what lets you and others be free to comment and post their feelings and thoughts on this whole situation. Please do not jeopardize your safety or ability to leave by revealing who you are. All of us in your "state of origin" feel the same - wait until you truly are free. I love you - the "Oldest".
The Oldest is, of course, Mom. My siblings have also expressed a lot of fear and anxiety. My biggest concern is for them. I fear for their privacy. All you have to do is Google my last name, and you find the names and addresses of my entire family. Could I possibly put them through that?
I need to make one thing very clear; I do not fear for myself. Nor do I think it could jeopardize my leaving the legion. It could jeopardize the relationship with my future bishop. Here are my thoughts on that. After years of second-guessing and half-truths, I want my relationship with him to be as clear and open as possible. If I were to enter a diocese where suspicions abound, I would live the same hell I have lived for the past fifteen years. The truth shall make your free, and I am determined to live in truth.
I’m getting ready for the barrage of comments this is going to cause. For those of you who will say, don’t let your superiors dupe you, they have not had a word in this. Furthermore, they know about the blog. For those who think I am wavering, believe me, my resolve is firm. I feel no sentiments or desire to turn back. For those who will say I deceived you, yes, that is true, and I am sorry. It was a rash decision on my part to want to reveal my identity, not taking into account the sensibilities of my family. If it weren’t for them I would do it.
One last word. Thank you for the many prayer intentions you sent. I literally placed them on the altar and celebrated my mass for all of you.
If it helps, you can use my pen name: Fr Jack