There is some concern among readers of this blog, and among family members, for my wellbeing while awaiting the necessary process for the dispensation of my vows. I can understand these concerns, and I can understand how it could appear that I am under a great deal of stress. That is not the case.
My day to day life is not typical for a legionary. I pretty much keep to myself, follow my own daily rhythm, make my own priorities and am, for the most part, left to do as I please. There is a great deal of understanding among the members of my community. This is due, in part, to my honesty with them. Speaking and acting truthfully has been, for me, the most liberating experience of my life.
At the same time, I am getting to know some of the priests in the area. Yesterday I spent the day with a group of 4 priests. We had lunch, browsed through a new bookstore that opened in the area, some went to see Twilight, and then we met up in the evening for a casual dinner in one of the priest’s rectory. It is refreshing to get to know the other side of priestly life, the lives of parish priests who care for their flock, but know how to step back and relax in a healthy, interpersonal way.
Monday, for a priest, is his day of rest. After a week of activities, and an intense weekend of masses, baptisms and weddings, Monday is a day to look forward to.
I have the feeling transition will not be difficult for me. I have been living more outside the legion than in. Sure, physically I am living in a legionary community, but psychologically I am not. It is not an awkward situation, at least not for me.