I need a holiday ... a very long holiday
and I don’t expect I shall return ...
in fact, I mean not to. (Bilbo Baggins)
Tomorrow I will be leaving to visit my family. I cannot express how excited I am. I am excited for two reasons.
First of all, it will be a chance to get to know my family members again. I feel so out of touch with them. Sure, we have written, but it’s not the same as sitting down for a long talk. I will also get to know my nieces and nephews. I feel I don’t know them at all. Some are already in college, others in high school. I remember them as small children.
Second, going home for me will be like an unofficial leaving the legion. Sure, juridically, or if you like, legally, I will still be bound to the legion. And that may last for some time. But I don’t intend to return to a legionary center or house. I will do my best to keep in contact with my bishop to see if on returning, I can move into a parish. There are priests here who have told me the door is open whenever I need to. I am seriously thinking of taking them up on it.
At any rate, when I leave tomorrow, I am not going to leave anything behind. I have an open ticket, and plan to leave it as open as possible. Yes, a very long holiday indeed.