Monday, August 9, 2010

The 9th is not the 12th

The days are flipping by, and as they do, I am getting more and more excited. You know of course that August the 12th is a big day for me. Bishop J will decide on that day where he will place me in his diocese. You cannot imagine what that means for me. Up until now my future has been somewhat of a dream. Now it is becoming reality.

My family keeps asking me to change my ticket to a much later date, like November or December. There is so much more we would like to do: a camping trip in the mountains, watch the leaves change color, maybe Christmas together. I cannot deny I would love to do it all. But at the same time I get a little anxious. You have to take into account that my family works. I am not able to be with them 24/7. There is a lot of slack time that I need to fill in, and after a while I get jittery. I really need to get back to work, or rather, start over again.

How I wish today were the 12th. But you can't rush time. I just have to be patient. I am not a very patient person at times.


  1. Dear Father,
    With your recent departure from the Legion, I know rest and relaxation is certainly not something you are accustomed to!!

    My husband and I have just left RC and pulled our son out of Sacred Heart. The quiet of the phone and e-mail and restful weekends have been and continue to be a HUGE adjustment for us as well. I am sure nothing compared to your adjustment, but similar. We are loving it!

    Enjoy these last days or weeks with your family. Sleep in, take walks, hug your family drink a beer and eat with your hands!! I know, but a little craziness is good for us every now and then. I now realize that He wants us to enjoy ourselves and our families.

    We are praying to Saint Philomena for our mental and spiritual health and adding you in there too!

    Can't wait to hear where you are!

    Love and prayers,
    Jennifer B.

  2. Dear Jennifer B,
    I think when I know where I am to be stationed, the time will come to speak more freely about who I am. After all, the legionary superiors know I have this blog, and there is nothing they can do about it or do to me.

  3. "After all, the legionary superiors know I have this blog, and there is nothing they can do about it or do to me."

    Ah, what a refreshing sentence. Freedom is sweet, isn't it Father?

    ATL Granny

  4. I am an ex-member of Miles Jesu. Our problems were almost identical to the Legion and Fr. Duran was similar to Fr. Maciel. I have been out for three years. I have come a long way in three years. Please keep writing about your experiences I am sure that it is helping many people.

  5. Dear ex-Miles Jesu,
    I am planning on continuing to write my experience, either on this blog or a new one. It has been very helpful to me, and obviously to others.

  6. Dear Ex-MJ
    I met Fr. Duran about 20 years ago. He was interesting but deceptive, still pretending to be a member of his former community when it was convenient. I'm glad you are out.

  7. Padre
    Make sure you take your full day off in your new assignment. If you are not near family go for a drive to the mountains or the beach or whatever is interesting in God's creation. Don't easily run back for a meeting or a class. Your ministry in the parish will be better if you are refreshed and you need to not substitute another institution for the legion. If you are allowed an overnight occasionally, go for it!
    Most dioceses expect you to take 4-5 days off after Christmas, it's a great time to be with family or friends.

  8. Dear Father,

    when my husband walked out of the cult (an Eastern Cult), he had to work very, very hard to learn who he was BEFORE he joined. He learned not only who he was, but also why he joined, what was attractive, what was missing in his life that he felt the need to join......

    Today, he is pursuing his "first love", photography, a love he was never ever able to pursue as a boy.

    Recognizing old triggers that made him a cult victim, understanding cult think, and then actively going against it is something that will stay with him for the rest of his life. But bit by bit he will be free from it.

    And so will you: hard work, lots of prayer and the love of people close to you will carry you through.

    God bless!


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