This is what I wrote yesterday from JFK. I didn't get the chance to post it until today due to lack of internet access. Today I am back in Brazil and getting settled in. Many thanks to my family and all I have met this past month
Today I fly back to Brazil. It's a long flight; ten hours from New York to São Paolo. Then there are the connector flights. In all it will be some twenty hours door to door.
I am, as you know, looking forward to my return to Brazil. It is a new page, a new chapter in my life. In some aspects, it is a whole new book. What I am looking for most of all is for the Holy Spirit to do the writing. Why? Because the experiences I have had in the past weeks have been of being and instrument in the hands of the Lord. There have been so many people that have thanked me for graces received, prayers answered, for being able to return to Mass, among others.
Have there been graces like this while I was still in Brazil? Yes. But for some reason there have been more in the last weeks. Why? That has been the center of my thoughts recently. I think I can explain it as follows.
While I was still in Brazil working on my departure from the legion, my mind was caught up in a windstorm of emotions and, at times, anxieties. This month since I have been in the States, I have worked at clearing my mind and focusing on what is most important in my priestly life.
I wrote in a previous post that I will need to discover a new spirituality that will not include the lc way of looking at things. That, I think, will come from centering my spirituality on what it means to be a priests.
Above all, I see that it is necessary to be an instrument of the Holy Spirit, who is working in souls at all times. A priest seeks to discover the work of the Holy Spirit and nurture it, or help souls recognize it, recognize it and obey what he asks.
This is what I have seen in the past weeks. Now that I am less centered on myself and the personal problem that leaving the congregation brought me, I am more attentive to people, souls who are seeking, and the God who is seeking souls.
To be an instrument of God's grace! What better spirituality for a priest to follow.