It’s hard to admit, but I have a lot of anger issues. Some of it is personality. Some of it began before I entered the Legion. Most of it comes from knowing I was deceived and used by the Legion. None of it is good. All of it has to come out, hopefully in a good way. I guess that’s the main reason for pulling this blog out of the dust bin. It’s therapeutic. It was when I was transitioning. I’m sure it will be now.
I try not to fly off the handle in the presence of others. But on my own I end up cursing – road rage and stuff. There is so much that I need to get out. And for some time now I have convinced myself that “I’m OK.” But I know now I need more healing. I need to get over the apathy the legion instilled in me so I can help other better.
Just yesterday when I went to the Parish to hear confessions and celebrate Mass I was walking on air. It was just one post here and a couple on life after rc. But it felt so good to let things out, share experiences. There is a lot of hurt inside so many people, myself included, all stemming from an institution touted for so long as the salvation of the Church. It’s not. I wonder if it will be able to save itself.
Thanks for listening.